i used to love staying at home doing nth...perhaps juz hogged onto the computer the whole day loading shows to watch...reading fanfic or browsing celebrity news & pics...

i still love to do these...but now there's an additional panic which tells me i cant go on being like this doing nth and staying at home all day...

i think i should go find some work to do...but i dun feel like working...

in the past...i was happy staying at home all day long...but now...i feel like im wasting my life away being cooped up at home like tt...yet i still dun wish to go work...argh~

i should plan sth to do...but i wonder will this day ever come?

i want a meaningful, exciting & happy life...not a life filled with boredom and is wasted...life never repeats...so not a single day should be wasted isn it?

i want to live everyday happily...but y is it so difficult to do so?

ahh...i dun like being emo...really really hate it...